All My Luvin’ I will send to you…

Video Games, California and MOVIES!

In regards to my last video blog, I am proud to announce that I was cast in the indie film that I auditioned for! The character’s name is Lynea, and she shoots her boyfriend and kills him and then turns the gun on herself. I CANNOT wait to get that up! We shoot the weekend of the 17th of May and I hopefully will get my copies in June.

I am stoked, a little while ago I got a Playstation 2 and I have karaoke revolution on it. The songs my vocal coach has me work on are on the game so I get a bonus opportunity to study the songs-it helps especially with timing and breathing.

As soon as I find a replacement in my house, I’m packing up my stuff in my car and hitting the road. I’m currently looking for a room in the Alameda, CA area. CRAZY!

Fasting was rough. It lasted 3 LOOOOOONG days. I wanted to go for 21, but everything has to be right if I do that. I worked out too much during my fast instead of taking it easy and I almost hit the floor when walking through the mall in Oakland after 5 miles of roller blading. On the positive side I felt absolutely outstanding the next day. On the negative side, I went all of April without consuming any soda of any kind, avoiding meat and dairy and chemicals–but after the fast I found myself over-consuming all of the above. It’s possible I need a support system!

Last friday I performed at a Recognition Event for a hospital in Springfield, Oregon. The theme was the Wizard of Oz so they hired four actors (including myself) to perform as greeters, speakers, and general company. It was a TON of fun! The following are photos from the event.

Pre-show:



Getting ready:

During the show:

Taking a break:

The venue full of 2,000 hospital employees during the presentation:

It was so great, people approached me and said in awe, “You look JUST LIKE Dorothy!” of course, I had the be in character 100% of the time so I said, “I am Dorothy!” People also said, “You look so cute!” My response was, “Thank you, Auntie Em did my hair today!”

I have my agent Damon Jones to thank for referring me for that gig, it was a ton of fun and the event company even approached us with other possible character opportunities in the future because we did so well. ::sigh:: This kind of thing is was life is all about (for some of us !)

Friendly Fasting

I’ve read a lot about fasting lately and decided it was time that I took the plunge. It’s recommended that you do a juice or raw foods fast before doing a water fast but I tried a fruit fast last week and couldn’t last a day because I was still in the habit of consumption.

Yesterday was day One. It was easy most of the day, until the late evening. I actually had an increase of energy, (could have been from the audition anxiety, too). But by the time I hopped on my plane to commute into Oakland, I was utterly famished. I bought a gallon of water that I took on with me and drank about 3/4s on the plane. I wanted peanuts. I wanted pretzels. I wanted anything I could get my grubby hands on–but I just drank water.

I knew I had airport standby this morning, (an assignment made by our scheduling department that requires I remain in the airport lounge for 5 hours) so I decided to just sleep in the lounge as my report time was 5:30 am. I was really nervous about trying to sleep. A little over a year and a half ago I dropped about 30 lbs and the first month I really cracked down on calories. I would wake up in the middle of the night from severe hunger pangs. It made sleeping difficult and impaired my willpower. I was afraid that I’d suffer all night but instead I rarely felt hungry and slept poorly anyhow -which was expected because I slept in an arm chair.

It’s day Two and I’m SO HUNGRY!!!!!!! Appetite isn’t supposed to diminish for another day or so. I felt hyper a while ago and now I’m fatigued and have done nothing. Toxins have already begun to discard themselves-my mouth feels icky, I feel slightly dazed and somewhat jittery but without the jitters? Hard to explain.

Sometimes people need the 10-day mark or the 30-day mark to succeed with fasting. I’ve also read that ideally after the appetite subsides, once it returns it’s the body’s way of telling you to reintroduce food into your diet. This could happen at anytime. Studies say that the optimal amount of time to fast is beyond 21 days. After 21 days people experience clarity of thought, purification, and it has aided or accomplished the cure of diseases and cancers. Clearly at this point I’m approaching it from a one-day-at-a-time method. Perhaps after I lose my appetite I can create a time structure but right now I don’t want to torture myself!

Feeling Musical…

Free at Last, Free at Last!

I’m finally off probation. I’m finally not at the mercy of somebody I fly with that might just not like the way I wear my hair or think my jokes are bad. Like some, they may hate my internet life. Now, it’s up to me to keep my job, not up to another flight attendant. It’s so liberating!

I was on reserve and I got an AM trip to Omaha and Reno. I flew with some AWESOME people and we had a good time, (despite the fact we were all PM people on an AM trip!)

Reno was the best. I get there, and the F/O on the van with us is also a Portland commuter. In fact, he was on the same flight commuting into Oakland I told him I was a day away from being off probation! So, he’s like, we are DEFINITELY celebrating!

Before going downstairs I went jogging to Rock Park. Apparently no matter how much I try to ignore my doctor, she’s right—I can’t run on pavement. Jogging became walking after a few miles because I was in so much pain. Of course, she said I could run on flat surfaces if I went to physical therapy. I am way too stubborn to take physical therapy for something that EVERYONE should be able to do!!! Anyway, I ended up speedwalking for almost 20 miles. It was insane but soooo beautiful there!

Then I joined my crew at the blackjack table. I’d never played. I lost $20 bucks and ditched the table, right now I don’t have any kind of money to be throwing away.

Then we got to the bar and I played video poker. I actually made $7 and got about 8 free drinks. Yeah, EIGHT. The bartender was like, “I can’t believe you’re still functioning!” I was actually very articulate and coordinated—but it took alot of effort!

We then migrated to the Mexican resturant across the street. It was such amazing food–and my Reno commuting friend met me there and we just hung out for hours chatting and realizing how much more we connected than we ever thought. It was a really great time!

Anywho, my friend Angel whom I was flying with and I got along so well!

We knew every word to every favorite song that we both have–which I have NEVER encountered! The last 3 days went by so fast because I had such a great crew and it was so much fun! Omaha needs help, but Reno is so beautiful. Yet another place I could totally live.

Comic Genius

All right, “Genius” is probably pushing it… but I’m stoked because:

I was sitting in PDX, minding my own business, reviewing the photos of the night before last where Serena (one of my housemates and best friends) and her boyfriend Neil and I went out. They were so dramatic looking I suddenly felt inspired to turn them into a comic strip with the program on my computer called “Comic Life”. Some of it, admittedly, is only going to funny to those who were there, but still, it’s not bad for 20 minutes and I finished just in time to board my flight to Oakland!

After finishing this comic, I also had the pleasure of meeting Miles, an OPS agent for our company that a flight attendant had e-introduced me to a week ago and enthusiastically encouraged me to get together with him. She was convinced that we needed to “meet”. He just moved to Portland from Reno so I told him when I’d get back I’d show him around/take him out. Typically when someone tries to tell me that I need to “meet” someone they know, secretly I’m rolling my eyes, but once I met him I was like, hmmmmm

On a less positive/optimistic note, I’m sitting airport standby (aka airport HOSTAGE!) and was really looking forward to enjoying the sunlight by jogging 5 miles to 24 hour fitness and then taking Turbo Kick at 6:30. Unfortunately, I’m forced into being sedentary and surfing the net for the next 4 hours. And 9:30 pm is no time to be running out and about in Oakland/Hayward, California.

Greetings and a Message to the bored & understimulated!!!

Confession: Yes, I’m sorry, it’s been a long time. I locked this sucker up and have left you out for months.

I have outrageous news, though!

#1. I am now brunette, probably not for long though.

#2 The Dehen Cheer thing finally came through and now there are catalogues (FREE!) that you can get of me in them from modeling in November!!! REQUEST IT HERE: http://dehencheer.com/subs/catalog_request.php

I’ll scan the pictures as soon as I get mine, but I’m on the website, as well!

#3 The film “Last September” was finally released on DVD and I received my copies. http://exterior-films.com/

#4 I’m off probation on April 10th. That’s right, no more b&u (Bored and Under-stimulated) people to harass me and threaten my job when I have done nothing wrong.

#5 Today I began reading, “Skinny Bitch”. Believe it or not, I’m going from being a meat-eating, beer-drinking gal to a vegan. The reasons are too difficult to summarize and I don’t feel like I should HAVE to explain myself, however, all I can say is that the concept of eating meat or animal products is repulsing. I’m not saying it’s permanent and that I’ll be perfect 100% of the time, but I’m definitely going to see how the month of April goes for my body to find if this works for me.

#6 I moved in with 2 wonderful friends, Tracie and Serena, still in the Portland area.

#7 I am not moving to Chicago, which possibly presents some issue come May when I was supposed to go.

#8 As for guys…constant disappointments and wasted efforts. I did learn that despite the claims from those older than me that it’s in my best interest to stay single all through my 20’s and just have fun—everyone is different. And I am different. Dating excessively and hooking up at every opportunity is not my idea of fun-in fact, it grosses me out.

#9 My best friends (Christine and Colin-who are also dating) on this planet are going to move with me anywhere I want to go in a year or so when one of them (Colin) is done with school. That’s if all goes as planned.

#10 TO THE B&U: You’re insecurities and jealousy can’t hold me down!

Seriously though, get a life. This is mine. It has nothing to do with you, so don’t approach me and tell me not to write about you. Don’t tell other people to watch out for me because I’ll write about them. Because I won’t. This is about an actress who-on some days of the month-is a flight attendant. Not a flight attendant writing a gossip column. I HATE gossip!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

The title of this post is meant to be an indicator of my anxiety level at the moment—Less than 2 weeks now!  My goal by the end of tomorrow night is to have EVERYTHING memorized so I can just review for the last week and 3 days.

On another note, my parents are very good at reminding me of why I left just days after graduating high school.  They invited me back, now I’m almost 22 and I get, “Where were you?”  “Where are you at?”  “What are you doing right now?”  “What did you get there?”  “How much is in your account?”  “How did you pay for that?”  “Why do you have to go there?” “What’s that for?”  Hmmm, do you think this helps the anxiety?

Luckily, last night we celebrated Monica’s Birthday back at my house (my real home that I am just not staying at for a while).  Just in case you don’t know, my house is this gorgeous townhome that Derek & Nicholette, my married-pregnant-mormon-CPA housemates/landlords own and Monica is the roommate other than myself.  We all get along so well it’s disgusting!  We’re highly respectful of each other’s space and genuinely enjoy each other’s company.

Anyhow, I got to spend a few hours with them.  I’ve only been sleeping at my parent’s for about a week but each housemate expressed sincere “I miss you”s individual and as a group.  I’m the wild child with daily stories and they aren’t getting to feed off of my youth and insanity!  I gladly shared my most recent gossip and scandalous story and they loved it.  I miss them, too!

While we were hangin’ out, Nicholette went into description of the holidays and what we should anticipate this year since we are all so close and very festive individuals!  While listening to her I was overcome with a wave of sadness.  I realized all this “single fun” doesn’t quite compare to sharing something like that with someone you love.  I forgot what that was like!  In high school I had this great group of friends, we were all very energetic and cared about each other, and we embraced the holidays like you wouldn’t know people could!!!  I also was best friends with a guy I loved at the time, and I got to share that with him as well.  I forgot how magical that all is.  To look forward to it like a small child with their red and green paper chain ripping off each link that represents the countdown to Christmas Day.   To be overwhelmed with ideas of celebration and clever ways to make the people you care about feel like the most important person in the world.  I forgot all this because once my group of friends graduated (the year before me) it went away.  I was turning 17 the last time I had a beautiful Christmas such as that.  Since then it has been a bother, an inconvenience.  Especially once I was in a relationship, where my boyfriend at the time always treated me like an inconvenience to him.  My birthday is the day after Christmas, too, so I could sense his dread as we got closer to that time.  Naturally, this being the feeling in the last 4 years, I entirely forgot about the way that it might feel to experience that time with someone you love and who loves you and acts like it!   So as much as it was a blessing to acknowledge that, to come to life in a sense, it was also very sad.  I am aware that I will get to that place in my life, and I am extremely happy to have my housemates as friends to enjoy this year with.  However, don’t be surprised if I enter a blog later about how I worked like a slave on Christmas Day.  My housemates won’t actually be here on that day, and at this point in time I don’t really have a reason to either!

This just in!

Shhhhhtatic

::deep breath::

All my notices are in. T-minus 15 days until I enter my 3.5 weeks of DROWNING in all things SOUTHWEST! Oh, but don’t be mistaken, I am thrilled! The worst part is merely memorizing all those PA’s….”Ladies and Gentleman, if we could have your attention for just one moment……..seatbelts must be worn tight and low across the hips-like the captain’s speedo……if you press the button with the figure of a light bulb it will turn the light on, however if you press the button with the figure of a flight attendant it will not turn us on…” You know, all that.

Caught up with an old banker friend yesterday and watched the 3rd and 4th quarter of the OSU/UTAH game. Awesome-GO BEAVERS!